그냥

got the result today.....
not quite match with my expectation,
i was expecting better than this!
i know i should feel lucky,
but i feel down instead,
not much, just a little,
i have no idea why am i feeling this way,
mayb some part of it is because of almost every friend of mine in kampar left me entering degree?
ya i think so...
some sort of bitter feeling.
i realize that i'm not quite same with the old me anymore,
but i hate the new me,
lack of happiness,
like surrounded by dementors...
any word can describe?
dark and gloomy?not yet...
but i think i'm getting more and more of it next sem.
a kind of way to punish myself i guess.